April 18, 2008
I’m pretty sure I’m bi. I have no problem with the idea of making out with a woman, or dating one, or any of that lovely stuff. There is a problem that I have with being attracted to pretty women who make me feel like a boy in comparison (not the sexiest feeling) but I think that my biggest hangup has been the idea of girly sex.
I love sex. Love, love, love it. And one of the things that I love about it is feeling my husband (I say this since I have not ever had sex with anyone else, yet) inside me, filling me. Toys are just NOT the same, so how could I possibly have sex with a woman? The answer comes from my friend, T.
She told me that girly sex is not about “lesbian lovin’”, but about two women enjoying and appreciating each other. Suddenly I can stop thinking of it in terms of “but what is she going to stuff me with?”, and start thinking in terms of just enjoying another woman’s body. That would be awesome. It would be nice, I think, to find a woman who would be interested in dating both Michael and myself, but that would mean looking for a Unicorn, and that is a challenge in itself. Besides, I’m still waiting for a boyfriend (And no, neither of the cuties have emailed, yet.)